Daycare Blues...

I just could not resist posting these...

So tomorrow is my first meeting as a new faculty at the university, and next monday I start teaching all my classes. 

I can't help the feeling of so much guilt. I know that most of the parents have their kids at the daycare, but with Sophie it is so different. Vivienne did have an eleven months of the daycare when she was one year old, but ever since Sophie was born, they both stayed home with me. And now I don't know how I will feel to finally break this extremely strong bond and leave Sophie at the daycare. I'm sure she will be just fine and will have tons of fun there, just as Vivienne will at her preschool, but for me it feels all wrong. I have no explanation for experiencing this emotions of... loss of something important. I am used to be with my kids 24/7. Never with help, never a sitter even for a day. Am I exhausted? You bet. Am I excited to finally have a chance to leave them with someone else? Not at all. I don't know why I feel so sad.

Anyway, my babies are with me and only with me for this week and starting next monday I will take them to meet new friends and to learn wonderful things. And me? I will survive :))

Love...
Vicky